I’m hardly a prude or a saint. Nor am I depraved or deviant. I’m neither black and white, nor a single shade of gray. Like most of us I am a complex amalgamation of colors and hues, sometimes ferocious, often benign. I have a public face that I often cover with a private mask. I am a lot of things to many people but never quite the same one thing to all.Â
Now days I am more sober and serious than in my youth, yet I still preserve a hint of mischief and roguishness that finds its way to the surface when the occasion calls for it. I can be cold and aloof when appropriate or I can be a big teddy bear and shed a tear without shame.Â
Like most of us, I think I do a pretty good job of matching up the correct version of The Gray Dog, with the right “time†and the appropriate “place.â€Â You know what I mean? It’s so simple that most of us can figure out that there is a proper time and place for almost everything by the time we enter Kindergarten. We pick, we choose, we discriminate. But occasionally we find those among us less adaptive, possessing overwhelmingly deficient personalities; single faceted aberrations who defy any semblance of subtlety. Uni-threaded characters, once the sole province of dime store novels, now living, breathing and existing in the same universe as we mere mortals.
Now, usually, this is the section in my articles where I say, “But, I digress…â€Â But tonight, I sense this may be the right time and appropriate place to alter the usual scenario a wee bit and say, “Please, allow me to digress.â€
In early February of this year, many of my friends, both at OWD and Veteran-American Voices, were energized beyond anything yet witnessed in the few short months I had been affiliated with them. There was a buzz in the air. No, a screech! No, screech doesn’t quite do it. It was the sound of liberated flight, emerging from a vacuous swampland formed from decades of decayed spirit and tormented souls. It was the sound of freedom; joyous and uninhibited. It was the right time, the right place and a righteous act for this eagle to soar. The emergent noises from its beak, the rustling wind beneath its wings, were the sounds which stirred the long dormant emotions of a generation of silenced warriors.  It was a sound that awakened the eagles within us. It was the sound that would lead us to a place where eagles gathered. Â
The outpouring of emotion leading to, and culminating at GOE I, on March 17, 2007 will forever be catalogued as one of my life’s most cherished moments. Like memories of my first bike, my first puppy or my first kiss, it is a moment that left its imprint forever burnished in my memory.Â
And like all cherished memories, it should have had the opportunity to age gracefully, and improve like a fine wine. Unfortunately, those responsible for the public image of GOE, through the public BLOG and Forum, have distorted that image into something sadly grotesque. The emphasis has switched from being a serious medium to attract and inform veterans and the public at large about our mission, to a MySpace.com for veterans, complete with Date Nights, Chat Rooms, and fundraising; for what?
No, much of the unrest at GOE has nothing to do with technology or choice of hardware/software platforms. It has to do with content, character and how we are viewed by the rest of the world. I for one have not liked the image that has been projected for months. In spite of that, I would have been content, like so many others I know, to simply fade away from GOE quietly because I wanted to hold on to that cherished moment, that event that so many of us characterized as historic, pivotal and decades in the making. That feeling evaporated today when I read this self description of a GOE leader in the GOE forum “And, I can shotgun a beer. I also yell and scream during sports events on TV, while still being able to pull off high heels and short dresses. And my legs are 2/3 of my height.â€Â
Is this a righteous action at the right time and the appropriate place? NOT! This is not how I want to be perceived by friend or foe. This is not how I would have liked to remember GOE.
GOE leadership, like it or not, needs to learn that there are things appropriate for personal BLOG sites that have no place in a serious site that purports to reflect the views of thousands of veterans. What gets said at ER is of no concern to me. Everything you put into print at GOE is carefully scrutinized by those that would love to use it to their advantage. Current content controllers at the BLOG are providing a wealth of material for all who would work toward GOE’s demise. Each time a foul phrase is turned, we are stuck with it. Each time someone adds fuel to the flames you ignite i.e., “Does the winner have to supply their own condoms,†the rest of us are placed in the position of having to defend the indefensible. The truth is that you could have 90% legitimate material posted on this site and it will mean absolutely nothing, because it will be the 10% trash that sticks in most people’s minds. This site shouldn’t be about this.
I know there will many who stand up to defend you. They are the same ones bidding for dates. I hold no personal animus toward anyone at GOE. I’m just miserably disappointed that the site has become more focused on the personalities that purport to lead, rather than the true spirit which first brought us together.   Â
No, I and many others are not leaving GOE. GOE has left us. We have been usurped, ignored and disenfranchised. It leaves most of us that share these concerns, feeling as if this most wonderful opportunity has been lost, and the memory of this historic and pivotal event forever stained.  I really don’t want to go to sleep tonight. I fear that in my dreams, my first bike has a flat, the dog has distemper and my mind’s picture of that sweet young girl who shared a first kiss with a nervous thirteen year old boy, is now the mug shot of a hooker hauled in during a Friday Night roundup. Eagles UP!